Closet writer

My passion for writing started 17 years ago. GCSE English Language and Literacy, John Agard’s poem entitled ‘half cast’. The teacher read it with an West Indian lilt and that was it, love at first hearing. It may be a rudimental start for some but this is where it began for me.

This new love came as a bit of a shock as I had been diagnosed a dyslexic at the age of 9. I struggled with dyslexia until an amazing lady recognised my battle in the classroom. She gave me the additional support I needed to overcome my learning difficulty and within 6 months I grasped the art of language. She guided me to the path I am on now, and I am forever thankful.

I have never admitted my love of writing publically, for fear of failing, being misunderstood and my general shyness – I’ve been well and truly hiding in the closet, I guess I’ve come out now! To me reading and writing can reveal our emotions in an instant so expressing my deepest thoughts and ideas is a scary prospect. A sagacious author can manipulate words to trigger these emotions and this is my goal. The energy that language provokes is incredible and is completely misrepresented (text/slang) since we use it daily, all day.

Back to why I’ve finally decided to take the leap of faith. Shortly after the birth of my first child, four years ago, I came up with a concept for a children’s book. Something that has not been introduced to the main stream market, as far as I am aware. I have dithered, procrastinated, made excuses for not sending my script to publishers. If you are an aspiring writer reading this you know what I am talking about. ‘The ending is wrong’ or ‘It needs more critqueing’. It ends here, 2017 is my year to type-up!

In reality I am my own worst enemy. It’s the fear of rejection, that is all. Six months ago I gave birth to my second child, and whilst being a mother is my everything, I realised that I was losing my identity and worst – uninspired. The routine of motherhood literally zapped the life out of me. Determined not to sink into a rut I decided I needed to define myself as more than a mother, a wife and a 9 to 5’er. This blog is going to help keep my focus, give me a purpose to reach my goal. By making it public I now feel I have to achieve it, rather than simply talk about it. Watch me document my journey, grow, learn, be inspired, and finally, to achieve. I will also use the blog to share my love of reading and writing in general.

I feel vulnerable sharing my literacy journey, I might get it wrong, I might fall flat on my face but I’m determined to fulfil what I have set out to do! Support me, offer constructive criticism, inspire me, share my story but please do not kick me if I am down because I can not learn from that, but I will from a helping hand.

 

Love,

Janique

One comment

  1. eyeswideshut41 · January 20, 2017

    Hey sis fab read up and just wanna keep reading on….not sure if my comments are getting to you. So will rewrite what I wrote just in case lol never can have too much praise….
    You’ve captured my heart and soul and I’m immersed in your writing. You’ve set yourself a goal and you can achieve whatever you set your mind to you always have.
    You amaze me….and are amazing others by sharing your journey.

    Love and hugs T xxxx

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